Author: Skylar

Effortless love doesn’t mean lazy love

A. Garcia

I sit in silence

Remembering my screams, my pleads for mercy

Sitting still

But remembering my legs running, to stop you from leaving forever

What if I stayed silent?

What if I didn’t run?

Would have I regretted it? Or would it have stopped me from feeling this numbing pain?

No one to talk to, no one to turn to

Instead I’m in the middle of this room, reliving those moments

How can I forget the feeling, the feeling of my heart getting ripped out of my chest?

How can I forget the feeling, the feeling of a thousand memories becoming so bitter?

A feeling so painful that I cannot finish writing this…

A. Garcia

Sometimes a heartbreak is what you need, in order to rebuild yourself

A. Garcia

Falling out of love with needing 

And falling back in love with simply just wanting 

Two words that are worlds apart 

Needing means giving yourself up for that one thing, or person 

Wanting means keeping yourself intact despite not getting something, or someone

Realizing this is one thing, but living it requires so much pain 

A. Garcia

Shaping my fingers into a rectangle, resembling a frame

You, right in the center

The most beautiful piece of art I’ve ever seen

One of one.

A. Garcia

Every time you choose to not fight for me 

It’s a loss for not only you, but for both of us 

Each loss as equally painful as the past one 

A blunt reminder that I am as replaceable as I was once before 

But I look the other way, trying to avoid this unmerciful reality 

A reality that I live in 

A reality where I stubbornly try to find someone’s love where it matches mine 

Where I profess my love to you as if it is our last day on this Earth 

Where I give you my all, even when I have nothing left

And where I apologize for my feelings 

Even though inside, I’m begging for your understanding 

It’s a painful reality to accept

But I sleep in peace 

Knowing that whom ever comes into my world

Will experience a love that’s deeper than the ocean itself

A. Garcia

The dagger you left in my heart?

I left it there

I left it there so I can keep a piece of you

A. Garcia

Hi old friend

I thought we would never meet again

I forgot you lived inside of me

I forgot heartache is what you feed on

I remember the pain of grieving something, that is yet still so alive

I remember trying to forget, the other times that we’ve met

Where you filled the space left by someone

To be continued…

A. Garcia

What I’ve learned is that I shouldn’t rely on false hope

I’ve learned that I could only rely on myself

I could create a storm with my tears

And yet, I’ll be the only one saving myself from the ocean, which is my bed

It’s the most painful lesson I’ve learned

A. Garcia

When I asked my heart to forget you, it laughed

A. Garcia